I am checking off things on my list, but I feel like I am getting nothing accomplished. Mostly because I am so deep in a financial hole. I have no money in my checking account. I have nearly maxed out my credit card. The credit remaining on there needs to go to gas for my car. I get paid in two days. It feels like an eternity. This is not what I want for my life. It’s crippling in so many ways.
I need to keep moving forward. I will look into side jobs or other gigs. I have tried that in the past. It’s not great work. Usually these types of jobs consume a lot of time and don’t pay well. I tell myself my time would be better spent working on something of my own, a novel for example. Something that will give me a greater ROI. But will it? I can estimate that Naughty Week has made me around $400 so far. For the time that I have spent putting into that, the ROI is embarrassing. It’s only been a month. Just about exactly a month. I suppose if I make that much every month, then eventually the ROI will be worth it. But I can’t imagine earning $400 per month on a Christmas book after Christmas is over. I have this other project I’m working on, Lucky Day. I’m not sure when that will be ready. I plan on getting a first draft done in November. But I can’t imagine it will be ready for St. Patrick’s Day of this year. The money that I would need to put into launching that book is just not there.
I just received notice that my audiobook is completed. Whoa. I have 10 days to review and make notes. And then what? I can’t afford to pay for it right now. I won’t be able to pay for it by mid-November, unless I somehow bring in more money. I feel like I have miscalculated this entire endeavor. It makes me feel stupid.
I need to go to Riverside today for work. The meeting shouldn’t take too long. The client does not already have a website. I may go into the office after. The owner will be there apparently. I’m going to ask for a raise.
The Nats won last night. That was exciting. Game 7 is tonight.
